out of our hands

Another new low to the adoption rollercoaster...after so much anticipation and build-up, after every assurance short of a straight out promise that we would have a referral 'no later than the beginning of October'...there is no referral.

At this point we are coming to terms with the obvious fact that this is way out of our hands.  One moment I worry that our documents are going to start expiring again...the next I think if it is meant to happen we will be able to obtain whatever updates are required at the time they are needed.  I've spent too long second guessing, trying to guage, manage, understand...I'm giving up without giving up hope.  We are now at a whole new level of waiting...where we are no longer waiting for something we expect to happen...but hoping for a wonderful surprise.

But no referral for us doesn't mean no referrals at all...over the YEARS Dorinda has learned a lot about me and I think she is still searching for our 'ideal' match...where we, quite honestly, have broadened our expectations a lot.  I have told her...but I have a feeling she is waiting...